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The ill person that I spoke about in the last post was my wife. She has since passed away and my life will be changed forever now. After 53 years of being together it leaves a hole so deep and wide. There is no pain like this one, no words to describe the terror I felt for a month and the hollowness and emptiness that follows. I find it almost impossible to think of anything else. Each day is a drudge to get through but I am still here and have to find a way to fill my life with something meaningful. I am so grateful to be the guardian of these woods and will find some healing here and will continue to visit on a regular basis as long as I am able.
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Yesterday was the first time I felt anything other than grief. I came to the woods with my youngest daughter to get some nature therapy. How it has grown in just a month! Paths are becoming hard to negotiate and I will need to do some clearing soon. The woods are so lush and fresh now and it felt good to be back there. We fed the birds, lit a fire, made coffee and later cooked sausage and eggs to make sandwiches. My daughter is shaping up with her fire lighting skills. Without instruction, she set about gathering kindling. I showed her how to use a firesteel and flint and she soon had a flame going in the bird-nest bundle.
There were no jobs done, we simply enjoyed the beauty and peace to be found there and for a while I felt good, just being in the moment. I have a huge emotional mountain to climb over the coming months before I will start to feel anything like good on a day by day basis but the woods will help.
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May 23, 2022 at 10:23 am
Very sorry to hear that. Hope the woods provide you some solace.
May 23, 2022 at 1:17 pm
thankyou
May 23, 2022 at 12:21 pm
Out thoughts are with you in this time of grief and loss. Glad you have your “woods” to retreat to.
May 23, 2022 at 1:16 pm
thankyou
May 23, 2022 at 6:10 pm
So sorry for your loss
May 24, 2022 at 7:19 am
Thankyou
May 23, 2022 at 5:24 pm
Sorry to learn of your loss. I hope the woods will be a happy place to share treasured memories
May 23, 2022 at 6:10 pm
Thankyou